Wow, 2 posts in 1 day, but I don't really have another way to process this information since I just had a bomb dropped on me, and I am all alone.
I just found out that Karen Cheshire died.
While granted, it has been a long time since someone I actually know has died, it just came as an even greater shock somehow because it was her. Ever since I met her when she came to work with us at Red Cross, I liked her. Yes, she was loud and goofy, but she also stood up for her thoughts and beliefs. She worked really hard and believed in being accountable.
At the same time, I know she has grappled with a lot of personal stuff - just completing her second divorce and still working on figuring out some of who she was, but she seemed to really be getting happy and comfortable with her life. She had a vibrance about her that I don't see in a lot of people.
It's alarming how easily I can speak about her in past tense.
It really sucks that I've been out of the office for weeks recovering from this procedure and so I haven't gotten to see her. I am thankful, though, that I followed through on sending her a thank you email for lending me a book I read when I was first recovering. I'm glad that my last one-on-one interaction with her was one of thankfulness.
Wow, I just can't begin to imagine what a void she is leaving in the lives of all of those around her. They didn't have a lot of details, but it seems like it was a car accident of some sort over the weekend.
My mind is just blank - I can't seem to focus. I just can't wrap my mind around the fact that she isn't here. It's not like she changed jobs (like so many other people at work lately), and even though I won't see her, I know she's still out in the world somewhere. She's gone. Completely gone.
Wow, I also just realized the sad irony that the book she lent me was entitled "Gone Girl." Who says God doesn't have a sense of humor?
I don't know what's happening in life right now. I feel like so many crazy events are swirling around, and I don't know how they are all going to fall back down again.
In an instant, wow...
