So, good news/bad news...
Good news - after 7 months of my surgical wound not healing and insurance sending a 6-page letter to turn down coverage of hyperbaric treatments, the surgeon and wound care doc have decided to perform a surgical procedure to cut out the layer that isn't healing and sewing it together to heal.
Bad news - They waited just long enough for the procedure to fall right after the first of the year when my out-of-pocket costs start over. Plus, in an effort to pick a time to give me plenty of time to recover in time for my busy March, I have 2 weeks to get everything in order before the procedure.
It's going to sneak up fast with Christmas and New Year's in the interim. Of course, if this takes care of it and I could be healed up in a couple of months, I'm pretty ready.
It just sucks to take everyone theough it AGAIN. To have medical issues rule my life AGAIN. For my plana to be put on hold AGAIN.
I'd love to dream that this would be the last time. That I could final live a "normal" healthy life, but I have learned that no matter how well I may feel, this disease will continue to find a way ro assert itself in my life.
At the same time, maybe it will reset my attitude - it could use it. I just feel like I'm so damn negative all the tome. I hate being like that - i grew up surrounded by that and know how poisonous it can be.
I honestly have the life I wanted - i have amazing friends, exciting opportunities for a social life, I'm respected in pretty mich everything I do, I have a good job, and I (finally!) have a great man. In fact, I was just thinking the other day about how I have joked every Christmas I can remember that I wanted a man for Christmas, but this year, i have one,
So what DO I want in my life? Hell if I really know. Most of what I thought I was missing in my life is now a part of it, but I still have days where I am frustrated and wish for something elae - the undefined "something else".
Sherry in accounting was talking to be today about Christmas and asked if I was expecting a ring. I honestly said No. We are happy as we are, and I really don't think he is in that frame of mind. That's completely fine - I don't want to rush anything and I already have 2 weddings in the nrw year.
Still, I knoq the future holds so much. I'm just in a rush to get there...as usual.
