I love my theatre friends, and it is truly a gift that I have been allowed into this world that I've always wanted to be in and where I feel like I fit (at least more than in the regular world). But, I am also constantly reminded that I am still lacking when it comes to theatre-ness.
Many of the friends I have now - and completely revere - have so much more knowledge of all things lesser-known in the realm of art (music, movies, theatre, etc). In my other circles, I am the person who likes everything no one has heard of, but these folks put me to shame.
Honestly, it's been intimitading the hell out of me. Part of my identity is being the "odd man out," the one that introduces everyone to new entertainment experiences, but I feel like I can't commiserate in having that quality with these people because I feel like the neophyte.
Today, though, I realized that I have nothing to be ashamed of or feel "lesser-than" about. We've all had different backgrounds and experiences - and we all have different tastes. I am passionate about the films and music that I love. If it's not obscure enough, I have to get over that.
I still find it a miracle - and proof that God had a special plan to get me out of the world I grew up in - that I have discovered and been drawn to the unique tastes that I continue to develop. I still just don't know how it happened, but I'm glad it did.
