Ever since I found out that the closing banquet for the Southeastern Theatre Conference in March is cocktail/formal attire, I have been consumed with the desire to find something to wear. I have 3 black dresses, but one is too formal, one is too casual and one is too small.
Now, since my chance to wear something so special is very rare, I also don't want to drop much cash on it (not that I have much to drop right now anyway). I have been looking at every website I can find for formal, cocktail or party dresses on sale. I found a lot of pretty dresses, but nothing was "it."
I've been trying to talk myself out of the search - which is why I have found other ways to occupy myself after work (like cooking) so I wouldn't go dress shopping. I really did try reasoning with myself that I just wanted to feel pretty (since I haven't lately with my weight gain and impending medical procedure), but the idea that the right dress for a great price was out there for me just would not go away.
Then, today at lunch, I looked on eBay again, but this time only for the dress designer of the dress that I love (and have loved since the day I bought it) but is too small (and seems to have been too small since shortly after I bought it). There is was - in my size - for under $50 - the EXACT dress!! It was practically a no-brainer. I have always loved that dress and have tried to wear it to every event I have had where it would be appropriate for the last 5 or 6 years since I bought it but could only fit into it once. I prospect of having that dress that I feel great in in my size was more than I could hope for.
Since I placed the order, I have felt like everything's fine. The obsessive need to find this "thing" that was "out there" feel solved. It's like this is what was supposed to happen, and this is why I couldn't give up.
I don't know if that was the actual message from the Universe or just what I want to think, but either way, hopefully I have a great dress!
